One man’s voice Thoughts, rants and commentary from a husband, father of five and professional web geek

Another day at home

Today I spent another day at home. I was working, but still, working from home.

Depression, anxiety and exhaustion are terrible critters. They are difficult to contend with, difficult to see coming, difficult to understand and nearly impossible to treat without some type of heavy duty medication, counseling and therapy. Worse yet, the effects of an episode (whether it be emotional, spiritual or physical) generally seem to last for an extraordinary period of time.

When the person experiencing this condition is mom it makes the household really have to cover the slack. More so when mom is a stay at home mom. And in our case, more so even yet since we are a home schooling home.

What this means is that when mom gets sick, the house has to rally around that to handle the things that mom normally does. That means that things like preparing meals, getting the kids to school activities (field trips, co-ops, etc), getting younger ones ready foe the day, all of it, needs to be done by someone else.

When the someones else are a father and five young children, how many people know that things get a little rough?

And so it was today. I still had to work my day job. I still have a few client projects that I am working on. And I had a house to take care of today. And a household to take care of. Things were a little heavy today.

And they have been since Sandi broke down on Saturday.

Anyhow this is turning into a venting rant. The truth is I am the other half of the management team of our household. It should be my responsibility to take up the slack when it needs taking up. And so I do. Cheerfully at times, but whatever.

Tomorrow I have to go back to work. And honestly it will be a welcomed break. For a short time anyway. Most often when I go to work knowing how the household is in situations like this I end up spending most of my day worrying about my family.

I have Friday off though. I had taken it off to spend the day (and Saturday too) with my family in Sacramento on a field trip/family getaway. But that is being put on hold in favor of resting Sandi. I have missed two days being at work now so I may go in. But we'll have to play that by ear.

Till then, thanks for listening, er, reading. I have no shoulders to lean on so this will just have to do.