One man’s voice Thoughts, rants and commentary from a husband, father of five and professional web geek

I must be the root of all things suck

Today was supposed to be the day that our family went to Sacramento for a visit to the state capital. If you have read any of my posts from the last few days you'd know that there was an ice cube's chance in hell that we would be taking that trip today.

With Sandi being as sick as she is there is little chance of us doing anything like this for quite a while. So instead we are spending our day cleaning, working, yadda yadda yadda.

What makes this a little more sick is that this morning I found out that Sandi is sick because of me. Well, according to some folks you ask anyway. Apparently because of some sin of mine Sandi is being made ill and she will not ever get better until I get this issue of sin squared away.

Sweet! At least I know what is causing all of this mess.

Seriously though, being told that your sin is causing your wife's sickness and that her sickness exists to teach the entire family, especially you, a lesson is a little disconcerting. In fact, it kinda pissed me off.

But I got over it. I had to. There is way too much going on right to be bothered by senseless and stupid accusation like that. I have a wife to take care of. A family to support. A job to do. Clients to service.

So as I sat and thought, for the shortest of times, that being the cause of my wife's sickness was really a twisted way to look at things I began to realize that this though has no basis in reality to begin with.

I have a tendency to beat myself up as it is anyway, and adding something else from someone else's point of view could not, in any way, help that. So after a few hours I came to the conclusion that people get sick. It happens. Whether it is the flu, anxiety or depression sickness is sickness and if you don't keep yourself out of harm's way you are allowing yourself to be put in harm's path.

It happens. Life happens. The less time you spend taking care of business and spend looking at things that are not going to impact life in a positive way the better the chances are that you will spend more time looking at life and not living it.

I don't have time for that.