One man’s voice Thoughts, rants and commentary from a husband, father of five and professional web geek

Why can I not wake up?

I have had the hardest time lately waking up in the morning. I know I have been working a lot more at home than I usually do and I have more client work than I normally have.

This is not the first time I have done this. But it is certainly the first time that it has impacted me like this.

There was a time when I could stay up until 2:00 in the morning then turn around and wake up at 5:30 and go to work without really feeling it. Now it seems like those days are long gone.

As it is now my day is supposed to start at about 5:00 AM. If I am lucky I get up at 7:00. That is almost two hours of snooze button hitting every morning. No, my wife doesn't appreciate that.

I get to work and code for pretty much the entire day. Then I leave for home. I get home at about 6:30 each night and get to work trying to get dinner on the table and get the kitchen and living room straightened up. This usually takes me until about 8:30 or so.

I then spend some time with the family before getting the kids ready for bed. That normally takes me to about 9:30 or so.

At about 10:00 I get to start coding for my clients. This takes me through midnight-ish where I try to fold things up and call it a night. And this is where things catch up with me.

I should be able to function on five hours of sleep at night. I know this from experience. There is no way that being 30-something should prevent me from being able to hold on to some energy. This sucks.

I feel so old. Oldly old. Even a I write this I am feeling tired, which is making me feel even more old. How suck is that?

So now I am left with this horrible feeling of being too tired for my age while not feeling adequate enough to perform all my duties.

I need a hug. And a nap.