Working hard to do nothing
Posted on May 10th, 2008 in Personal Messages, Rants | No Comments »
Today I did just about nothing. I did some stuff, but nothing at all like I have been doing.
I was able to take some time off from the work I have been doing at home. Sort of an early Mother’s day present for me. And it gives my wife a little rest from watching me “obsess” over cleaning the house and keeps me from having to give myself a jump start on the week, and thereby upsetting the powers that be, by cleaning the house in preparation of the week ahead.
To be honest, I am glad I took this time off today. It was much needed, as I have felt over the last few days that I was on the verge of a breakdown. It was also nice because I wasn’t stressed out over yet another thing that has been occupying my time.
I have been bombarded with things that need to be done lately. And this comes at the expense of a lot of other things.
I have not been able to send as much daddy time with the kids because I have been spending more mommy time at them. And I have had no time with my wife because I have spent all of my time taking care of her. It has been chaotic, haphazard and frantic at our house. I am glad it slowed down a bit today.
Another thing that I really appreciated about today is that I was able to actually rest. I have so needed rest. I think I have been having more stress than I realize because I have been more exhausted, more in pain and more restless in my spirit than I have ever been in my life. Today allowed me the briefest of escapes from this mess. Nonetheless, it was an escape.
So now that I am done complaining about how hard I have been working and how much I need to stop working the way in which I am working I figured it is time that I set this aside and just chill. And seeing as tomorrow is Mother’s Day, I am sure the workload will be increasing dramatically in a very short amount of time.